I hope for the Rainbow.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

突然觉得自己真的很失败。或许我真的是个失败者。经过了这一切，我突然依稀发现自己似乎不是很适合这样的一个环境，甚至这样的尝试。尝试固然是好事，但这些都失败了。岂止一次，而是两次。虽然尝试是不能中断的，但想要持续下去的精神似乎已断绝了。我已经没有这种力气去坚持下去。甚至，我或许根本不想再去尝试。双重打击不是我所想象到的。这样的结局真的会让人措手不及，也将让我失去动力。
我想得到的安慰，你并没有给。迁就你已经我最高的顶线了。

没错，接受才是最高的境界。而容忍，只是表面上的接受，不是发自心底的接受。
（范玮琦错了。失败者是不可能再次展翅高飞的。）

linli ♥ 1:15 AM

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Hi.
I have a crazy thought right now in my mind: I wanna be busy.
Busy-ness makes me feel more motivated. That's why I wanna be busy.
Currently, I just feel that I'm just procrastinating and not cherishing the time I have. So, actually, I should stop blogging now huh?(:
I guess I will be when the time is here.

I wanna feel like a REAL youth. I wanna make my college life more fulfilling and enriching.
(Ehh...I don't know what am I typing right now. But really, this is what I think.)

I have so many vows. But none of them have I really put into action. So, I should just stop wasting any MORE TIME and get rooted to the ground for this big time!
It may not be for me, but at least for what I wanna be. Now and in the future.

Linli: Jy.(:
This is a message for myself.

Am I starting to feel more acclimatised? Or am I still not used to it? Sometimes I feel like I'm there, but sometimes I don't. I ought to be there already. For goodness sake.
My memory is failing at this crucial moment.): It just ain't working.

Is that for me? I won't say the ultimate. I'm not saying it.
I am. You are.

linli ♥ 7:32 PM

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Hello.
Orientation's over for now. 5days. With the remaninings: flu and sore throat.
I guess I'm already influenced by the vj culture. Now I'm getting more used to speaking english.(I guess.Actually it's too short a period to say this yet.) Even though it's only 5days in vj. And it's ture that vj has a totally different culture from cch,in terms of the language the people in vj speak especially and also the way they live their life in school. I'm not yet able to say that I'm a Victorian. I didn't actually want to say that I'm a Victorian because I still don't recognise myself as one. It just feels awkward to say this,sorry.

Orientation is kinda boring. I won't say it's fun,because it really isn't that fun. Other than doing the mass dances,although I was fumbling my steps throughout the dances. I like the whineywhiney dance most. It's one of the easiest to me. The last one was difficult,only the girl from Thor can do it. The girl from Thor(Kimberly I think...or is it Joy?Idk.) is very talented in dancing seriously. Saw her doing some kind of dance which is in between popping and hiphop. Wow. Awed. No wonder she can do the OMG cheer so well. I like Orin's and Illumus's cheers!(: They are seriously catchy,unlike ours. Hmm. The sea sports carnival was a little messed up. Everyone was sitting under the hot sun and in the end,many had sunburns. Likewise me. On the scalp somemore,and it's horrible!):

School's starting tmr. It's civics tutorial tmr. Don't know what's that.
And I'm announcing that rachel is gonna be in the same class as me again!(:
Haa.
And I regretted choosing bcme instead of pcme. Physics is much more useful than Biology in the future. Wanted to appeal but don't know how to,and I don't know when is the deadline for it. I'm seriously regretful of my choice already. I guess the only step for me is to do well in Biology and get promoted to a good university. I hope I won't flunk my GP!(: Hopefully. Since my english is so terrible. GP must be difficult and hard to cope with. Moans.):

linli ♥ 6:30 PM

Friday, January 30, 2009

I've changed my blogskin again.(: Because the previous one had some problem with photobucket. And I'm lazy to host the pictures myself on photobucket. I've forgotten my password and username as well.):

Hmm.
Yupp,posting results are out now.(:
I guess quite a few chungcheng-ers will be in there. I've so far know about 4/5 already. And there will be more I guess!
&A note: heard rachel say that there is about 1/4 of our cch cohort in TJ! Surprising. Wow. It's really alot. Like what rachel says,mini chungcheng.(: Haa.
&Another note: heartscacophony owner - your blog name is so literature! Haa.(: screeching loud sounds coming from your heart ehh? :D Hee. And remember to meet on monday! Yay.

I'm currently addicted to Kpop.(:
Especially SS501.(: Youngsaeng! And Kyujong(rachel's love).
One of their mv's is seriously uber cute. Especially their expressions.(:
And that is the song which has the dance which some of the members like youngsaeng,jungmin,hyunjoong tend to forget. Watched some of their live performances and saw some tend to forget the dance for ONLY this song. Haa.
Wonder girls is not bad too!(: Hee. Ye-eun! Though she's not a very popular member among the group. I guess the most popular one it's Sun-mi or Sohee. And it's not a weird thing for them to debut at young age. Sohee is the same age as me! Gosh. But her vocals to me is still not stable enough and not strong enough. Her voice tends to drown in the music during live performances.

Boys before flowers!(: Haa.
Lee Minho is famous now. Sudden rush of popularity ever since the show aired.
Saw on popseoul.com that many think that Lee minjung will be a better Jandi. But I don't think so. I think Goo hyesun did her job well as Jandi. Lee minjung just looks too gentle to be Jandi. Though she's pretty. I guess she won't be a better Jandi.):

Just read rachel's blog again.
And there's one thing I'm agreeing with: Constant rotting.
I'm really rotting at home! Without anything to face except the com.
And seriously, I somehow can't wait for school to reopen too! But Haaa. I know I will be looking forward to holidays once again. But I guess school's more fulfilling yea? At least you get to be busy and study. Pros and cons AGAIN.
Holidays really gets Boring with time. But I guess let's just enjoy the last 2 precious days of our holidays before school REALLY reopens! And I know I'm missing holidays.

Ohyes! My blog colour combination is really dull right? The text I mean,not the pictures.
All thanks to me.
The original font was light pink but I wanted a duller colour so I chose veryvery dark brown/grey. And the title became dark olive green when it was originally red for the date,light blue for the signoff of each post and pink(I think) for the sidebar headers.
Hmm. I'm a dull person. I just don't like bright colours. I like dull colours. The only brighter colour I like is red.(: Other than that,it's black,grey and brown. Oooo. But there's mint green on my blog too! Haaa.(:
Changed a few things on my blog. The original piece wasn't really this dull. It's kinda bright.
And I wanted a simpler skin,so I chose this to begin off with.(:

Hmm.
I think it's hightime to improve my english!): My writing skills too.
My writing ability seems to be lost!): Aww.
But Idk when was it even there.
Haa.

I'm contradicting...

linli ♥ 11:51 AM

Friday, January 16, 2009

Decided that i should just revamp my blog.(:
Good? Nope,I don't guess so.
Still,blogging and typing posts are boring. So,I guess I will still give up halfway.):
Aww.

Olevel results and posting choices of JAE are the hot topics.
I wasn't exactly hoping to get into my first choice. Contradicting. Many people have been telling me that. Get it?
So why do I even put it as the first choice? Good question. Because I'm forced to.
But,I guess I will just follow wherever Fate brings me to. And just endure that 2 years and come out as a brand new person. With or without branded labels.
Yes,I am frustrated. Over wherever I should go.
Still.

linli ♥ 4:10 PM